I VERY SERENDIPITOUSLY FOUND MYSELF ON A TWO WEEK ' SACRED FEMININE IMMERSION'  WITH A TANTRIC TEACHER, SOFIA SUNDARI...

To say these two weeks changed my life is an understandment. It was a whole new world of remembering the sacred feminine, intuitive dance & movement, nourishing & loving touch, profound sisterhood, coming to know my authentic wild nature & letting of her out of her cage,  learning to love & listen to my body, discovering the power of my breath & my voice, being out in nature, having the most real, connected, vulnerable conversations with new sisters,  being initiated into the healing & empowering practice of using yoni eggs, speaking to my pussy & letting her speak back,  forgiving myself, glimpsing my own divinity...

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It was all brand new, yet it was all so oddly familiar. It was as if all the hidden knowledge that I carried in my bones, in my DNA, in my soul, from the lineage of my feminine lines, from other life times, from a time when I was one with the Source of it, all came rushing in & bubbling back up to the surface.

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Here I was in this beautiful jungle resort in Bali - surrounded by 20 other women from all over the world, hearing what I always knew, what I ached to hear -

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Sex is sacred. Your body is sacred. There is more to you than you’ve been told.

These bodies & our sexuality are powerful.

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It was all being affirmed. And I was eating it up, the famine was over & I could finally feast on all my soul's desires.

From there I continued to study with Sofia, entering into her Priestess Temple training. I was initiated through rituals & ceremonies into a deep love, reverence, respect for my body, for the temple it was, for the wisdom, the divinity, the power she holds.  I went through a profound sexual healing & activation. I learned the healing art of sexual dearmouring, of yoni massage & devotional bodywork - approaching these bodies with deep respect, awe, care & devotion,  restoring divinity, love & safety to our most sacred places. 

It was during this training that I was so deeply moved by the collective wounds that all women carry around their sexuality & body. It was like a tidal wave crashing down on me when I realized how much pain, shame, trauma we are carrying around with us, how this has disconnected us from our one true homes, the gift that our sexuality is, and the power that these bodies & our sexuality has for us. I was pummeled by those waves & it was heart-wrenching...

And then the waves settled & I could look around at the profound & glorious healing that was taking place,

the reclamation of their bodies, their sexuality, their power that was happening,

the unashamed, unrestrained celebration of the female body, beauty & sexuality that was happening.

the resilience of the feminine spirit that was making herself know.

And I was overcome.

I SO DEEPLY FELT, ALL WOMEN DESERVE THIS.

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I felt unbleivedly sad for all the women who never got the chance, who would never get the chance. But I felt overwhelmingly hopeful & grateful for all the women who would. Who would get the chance, the space, the support to reclaim themselves - their bodies, their beauty, their sexuality, their power, their innate value, their sacredness. 

In that moment I knew, I knew this is what I am here for. I am here for this reclamation. This healing. This celebration. This homecoming. This glorious victory. 

From there,  I immediately enrolled in a year-long very intense, very comprehensive Sex, Love & Relationship Coaching training with Layla Martin. It was year of such deep unlearning & remembering.

It was a year of insights - one revelation after another, one a-ha followed by 10 more.

It was a year of so much compassion - for myself, for my journey & for all the women in my program who I was practicing with, learning how to hold them, their stories with such compassion & reverence.

It was a year of self-love like I never knew before - I learned how to see my sexuality, as a gateway to the most profound intimacy with myself, as a space to deeply connect, heal, & love myself.

It was a year I dedicated to myself, to my body, to my sexuality - to really peeling back the layers, to releasing what wasn’t mine, to healing, to restoring, to unleashing, to expanding.

In that year, I felt my power coming back to me, I felt worthy, I felt valuable, I felt lovable, I felt sexy, I felt purposeful, I felt passionate, inspired - and I was the source of it - No one was responsible for it. 

It was that year I met my now fiance & I could begin to share this new relationship to sex with another.

It was & continues to be a learning journey. Where communication is key, where compassion is needed, where safety is highly valued & tended to, where sex needs to be a priority, where unlearning & unwinding are necessary, where deep healing is happening, where expansion is always possible...